i treated this guy with my upmost respect. but never would i get the same due respect i'm supposed to get. wad have i done wrong? 2 people asked the same questions; me and another person. but i dun get the same answer. the other person get was a very polite answer. whereas mine's a very scastastic one. do u even know wad u've done really hurts? i'm trying not to get petty over this kind of stuffs. but ur action pisses me off too much till i cant even try not to think. ^ dun u find it wierd tt i treat u better than other guys? ^ would u dare to say u didnt know i like u? ^ dun u find it wierd tt i'm always looking at u? or ur direction? ^ or did u simply acted blur abt all this? but now, i tink i'm slowly LOSING the love i used to have for u.................... mayb now, it's jus more of a sibling kind of love? but i jus cant seemed to forget the love i used to have for u. i'm trying.. to forget u...... but seeing u every weekdays... how shld i try not to see u? or shld i jus acted blur jus like wad u did to me? yes, i tink i shld jus do tt. solve all the bloody problems. jus so pissed off with YOUR actions. but yet i wasnt really angry. isnt it ironic? *sighs-shakes head* but why is it tt u r always listening to all my problems always there for me but u didnt even know i've been there for u..... waiting to help u but never did u know i jus wanted the day at the beach can tt ever happens again? i suppose NOT. but mayb after my o, i shall asked u out one day. mayb jus go there to listen to the sea waves.... to sit there watching the clouds to see the sea and simply to talk...... mayb... if till tt day i still cant forget u i might jus do tt.

today i started my day pretty well X)) loves all the good things tt happen.. the good things... first: seeing this pri sch of mine (which really make my day well... imagine me choosing to walk to sch instead of switching bus??!!) second: i got his number already!!! X)) *cheers and claps* third: passing my geography test wif like an A when i expected me failing..? forth: not bringing my emath assignments when in 1st period she said she needed it later.. then after tt she changed her mind..... no need to hand in. (or else i've to "enjoy" the scenery outside class..) fifth: i got 33/50 for my chinese....... is it finally i hit the "30" mark... sixth: my mum's not at home....... no naggings! *yay* seventh: i get to eat out! but bad things do happen too......... first: getting to walk to sch alone! but it's okay. second: my peanuts got "stolen".. my class guys share them ard the class.... third: i thot mdm ho needed the assignments. have got a scare.. forth: 2 gals cried in class......... my clicks smmore leh.... =( fifth: having peer tutoring sixth: not getting to eat recess......... cos of mdm ho *argh* seventh: getting tease by chinhui in kfc! sighs* dunnoe is good or bad la... MORK EXAMS ARE COMING UP SOON!!! argh. dun wan to study anymore......

anyways there is obviously SOMEBODY tt has been visiting my blog FREQUENTLY out of a sudden so many blog visits starts..... as if i dun know who like tt arent "it" SLOW? the post is like has been there so long L-O-S-E-R post it in where ever u like cos i dun believe in propanganda HAHA. CHIM (: hmm.. btw. USE SARCASM ON ME AND I'M GG TO MAKE SURE U GET BACK FOR ALL THIS u shoot me one sentence, i'm gg to make sure u get back at least 5! obviously, it's all abt me. so wad? true frens are the ones tt matters i dun need any fake ones. unlike u u have been surrundered by all those P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C is the word i'm giving it back to u

tests and test each week. like not fun at all lor. being labelled as "healthy" isnt good at all.. i dun wan anymore red marks by the end of feb/mar i wan to pass all my subj at least like C5? and more distinctions of cos but it's hard arh jus goanna give my best shot for this bloody o lvl exam and most prob go POLY then i wont have to work so hard ald. HEHE (: so far, flunked so many subj.. ss source base question... 49% my amath 2 tests, both on differentiation. one's 48% and the other 43% failed physics. think it's 40% but i passed my eng.. 53% emath.. 92% chinese.. 57% geo.. tink it's 57% chem.. 57% when i can get 70%.. humph. careless mistakes.. is like wad the heck lorr failing amath test when it's the best subj of mine I'M NOT GOING TO FORSAKE ANY CHAPTS i got to pushed myself further. to motivate myself the subjects i "passed" are like only borderline i got to work harder and yet harder...... can someone helped me in my source base? i totally sux in tt.... i usually dun noe wad the heck the cartoonist is trying to say and my amath............ how can i fail? and dropped so much grades? i used to b an A1 student.. now i'm a failure MORK EXAMS ARE COMING UP SOON all on wed.. no more wasting time to sit and talk crap in assembly. MORE EXAMS........ BLESS ME. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LULU!

i would say this yr's celebration run is completely dumb. perphaps i wasnt in the mood of running or mayb mdm sim wasnt there? or is it tt my blisters hurts? i dunch noe. i hate doing/hearing things repeatedly each yr such as.. . running at bedok reservoir . listening 2 mr neo's phrase of "good morning all collegues and all tampinesians. LOOK up LISTEN up!" *sighs* how much more boring can e things get? mr lai WON the 1st in e male teacher's race and ms picca got the FORTH!!!!!!!! ermssssssssssssss (when she told me she doesnt wan to and feel like walking) c(= and my class won the novity race! mdm sim got no liang xin she left me jus running and she told me jus at the last moment when she has ald promise to run wif me? humph! this yr got no milo. ARGH! i LOVES cold milo =))) wad's wrong wif me? i'm jealous of her? and i angry wif ppl who mixes wif her? nobody knows; i too, doesnt know. yet my feelings and all my attitude changes day by day till today, i still doesn know when is my real self my moods are usually tempremental i can b the best person on earth u ever know yet i can b the person u'll dislike the most i can treat u like my close fren this moment and the nxt moment, things changes. i dunnoe y but tt's jus me accept me for who/wad i'm and not wad i'm not *CHEERS AND CLAPS*

HAPPY VALENTINE EVERYONE! perhaps i was expecting too much for a valentine? smt i DO fantasise alot and of which NONE r the same in real life i hate it when ppl starts asking me whether i'm giving fanye anything and whether he's givin me anything. firstly, it doesnt have to do wif anyone and secondly, why mus it b him? spare me the rumours. this yr's valentine was of much fun though buying presents for my besties became broke in the end. but it's ok cos... THEY R MY BESTIES! weee~ my clicks - chinhui, jingting, yuying, hwee huan, jean and ME (cindy wasnt there td) bought rose for mr lai!!! naming it as secret admirer~ wee wee wee! then big jon also got give.. never write name somemore.. so qiao. went tuition. sian but was real fun. mayb b'cos jus c them like once a week only ma.. i got a shock of my life when dennis and wang xu gave me rose! OMG. but it's super ex lor. $8 for a rose? to me, it's the thoughts that count ma. but luckily, i bought chocolates for the 2 of them.. heng arh.. luckily dennis ask me to buy choc for him ma. then i decided to buy for the 2 la. who knows, they appeared wif roses for me.. jingting lao gong's present lil bear for sujun pooh for des rose for esther (in which, she forced me to buy =P) the same rose.. the same one again... for darling angelina, twinie chinhui.. same one, wif a star in the middle.. for huimin hand-made rose.. by wang xu's fren.. shall upload in the rose frm wang xu and dennis in the nxt post.. elifie might b coming over my hse for 2 mths. it's goanna b fun. after all, this is the 1st time mummy's letting a dog into my hse! i tink elifie's gg b cute, from the way da jie judge it, it's like WOW! and elifie doesnt have lots of hairs (for which i'm sentive to tt) and it doesnt bite. +) i'm looking forward to tis yr mass run. not the runnning part though. it's the part where i'm sticking wif mdm sim... hope she doesnt mind =) i simply love her to bits and pieces +) sometimes i wonder to myself was tt true love i was mentioning? or was it jus a coincident jus b'cos u help me? or was it tt i jus treat u like an elder bro jus like justin? *sighs* sometimes i jus cant b bothered wif things for which no matter wad it is, my o lvl is still the pirority cheers and claps*

the o lvl results are OUT! i wonder how melissa they all did. wanted to ask her; but she's left when i'm in the hall. i miss her; miss her so much. the days where we joke, along wif evon, ken kor, . . . the first few seniors i knew, the first gan kor and jie i've in sch. td's nxt yr will b either my proudest moment in this sch; or mayb my worst or even death day. *sighs* all grad classes, ganbate!! all teachers tt came into the class td was shit; totally shit. (<-- mdm ho's words) they started pressuring us abt 2004's batch and 2005's batch. but wad the heck has it got to do wif us. sians. mdm ho was like in cold sweat? then she so sotong td.. jus b'cos of of the 4e3 (2005) the sec1s came into the library td. wif the new sec3s too. it's somehow craps. alfred's back. *gosh* but WE got the most intake. out of the 10 sec 1s, there are 7 tt came on fri. good or bad? sians. i tink i'll b the only early senior on tt day. OMG. without des = death for me. i dunnoe how to communicate wif them. and i've a super poor memory, i cant rmb their names well. tyk's sis is here; same day as us. she's soooo cute. so unlike the bro. HAHA. =) MDM SIM is booked my ME ON 18-O2-2OO6 WEE~ we are gg to go tgt; the most i promise to wait for her if she's tired. (but she claims tt she hasnt been running for 1yr..) but one thing it's unfair; we came back tgt last yr and i got a 69 position and she got a THIRD in the teacher's race. wad is this. hais. i tink i goanna miss her the moment i grad from this sch. after all, she has been one of the fun teachers i know. but she wasnt teaching me in sec3 or 4.i tink i'll come back to tpss frequently if i'm free. jus like me visiting tnps? to look for mr seow and ms marlene tan. mdm norsham has ald left the sch.. i tink. oh freak. i tink i'm getting fat. eat; sleep; play; fun; more hw is currently my life. i lack time in tv watching; gaming; and even to exercise. tink i shld find more time to work out and burn off my calories. =) mayb working out at lulu's gym? c how it goes then.

can sm1 kill tt bitch in my class? she's f*cking irriating. first. she starting saying me. -> she started telling ppl. I was the one who wanted to do all the class committee. she continuted adding, "she dun like to do meh? i thought she like". TO me, it's more of tt "harlo, who likes to do same things for exactly 2 whole year?" I dun. and pls la, stop assuming things which i've never done or say it. second. SHE talks too much in class. -> and it continutes for as long as a class time. and it NEVER stops. SHE thinks SHE's gd in maple when she's seriously nt at all. SHE simply loves AC and LOVES to AA. *sighs* third. SHE keeps pushing all the blame onto me. such as saying words which will definately makes her off the hook. and tt SHE often blames others for things tt was wrong; and never reflect whether she's wrong anot? fourth: SHE doesnt know grammar! OMG. go primary sch la. there's tampines pri jus beside tpss. get ur ass off this sch. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. WHO ARE U TO COMMENT ON MY LIFE GET UR OWN LIFE AND STOP HARRASSING OTHERS

omg. this's yr cny has been so hertic. day 1: go my grandma's hse day 2: last min suggestion for every1 to come my hse (6th grand-uncle coming my hse) day 3: go shliea aunty's hse day 4 - day 6: go sch -boring days lie (holis mood) day 7: enjoy life! go fren's hse day 8: go sharon aunty's hse wells, it's fun la. but it's quite tirring to walk ard. let me elaborate on day 7! went to yuying's hse 1st. play there so long like 3.5 h cos we waiting for lulu.. somemore play scrabble, play cards abit. taught yy how to play.. then lulu came along. went ch's hse. we v late. so in the end never saw ch's mum. cos she got to work! but we saw her jie and kor. SHE'S FINALLY NT THE SAME AS HER! lols. but well got 2 red packs, cos her sis married le. and her mum's too.. wee~ gamble alot. win $1.9. not alot but it's the fun that it contains! then we go MY hse. gamble. then i start lose $$. boo. bad luck at home =( after tt got to rush to jean's hse.. jean's hse super bigg. shocked man. didnt expect.. her hse LOTs of deco. mus b hard work.. her mum looked so alike like her!!! =) her bro also gamble wif us. then i lose lose lose money. alot leh. so in the end lost abt $3. after tt went to lulu's hse. we had fun~! saw her rm. so nice... good view *can pio guys!!* i still can rmb which block she live! i've such a gd memory~ hehe. shld b tt's all.. blog more details some other days. sleeping le~ nights

why is it tt all the co chair have to suffer for everything tt's wrong? for me, year 2005 has never been a happy time for me, now it seems tt year 2006 wont b a happy year for est. and mayb for me too. at least she's having a chair tt is supportive of her. (so bloody unlike me) jus tt only uncle lai doesnt know. wad the heck. yes, mr lai has always been a nice, friendly teacher for me. but somehow i feel he did not see the actual situaition as he's nt seeing us in most of the lessons. there might b some biasedness though. i'm quite upset-ed by this. i dun understand why mus ppl do things jus to get others' attention? jus to let them know they did jus the surface job but not the rest? or is it taking some1 work and say it's their work? wow! this world's so great. bla. this dear esther: yes, this world IS unfair. life has always been like this. wad u expect? lols.